鷹問魚，可你是怎樣來到這兒的呢？

魚說，我的翅膀被射中，跌落谷底后又變回了魚，

幸運(yùn)的是，那是一條通向大海的河，

我想，我原本就是一條魚啊，我還可以游啊，

你瞧，如今我們又是一樣的了。

2009年初，父親病逝，我大二，休學(xué)一年回到沈陽老家，陪伴母親走出陰霾。因家境大變，一年后再次回到香港，驚覺自己已負(fù)擔(dān)不起當(dāng)時較為昂貴的學(xué)雜費(fèi)用，寫作賺到的那一點錢僅夠維持基本開銷。為免母親憂心，我選擇自食其力，但非常反勵志的現(xiàn)實是，我根本無力自食：想打工，香港政府不允許留學(xué)生打工，抓到就遣返；想創(chuàng)業(yè)，沒商業(yè)頭腦，試做過小生意，把手頭最后那點錢也賠光。

生活中多少未經(jīng)思考的美好，都是習(xí)以為常的毒藥。我一直相信，人只有承認(rèn)對生活本身的無力以后，才是真正獲得勇氣的開始。我的勇氣用在了借高利貸上，而且是在香港。都是從小看《古惑仔》長大的一代，八年前初赴香港前，表哥表姐還特意叮囑我，到那邊千萬別惹黑社會呀，見到大街上砍人躲著點走呀，血迸一身用淘米水洗呀。但只要在香港生活過就會知道，那是一座被影視劇嚴(yán)重歪曲的城市，單就社會治安，安全系數(shù)亞洲前三。我當(dāng)然想不到，幾年后的自己也會跟“高利貸、黑社會、古惑仔”等港片名詞發(fā)生真切的人生交集。

借高利貸也并沒有想象中那么可怕，你不會一上來就跟左青龍右白虎、張口閉口“

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